Let's Pack Up and Get Ready for the Trip

Dear Reader,

I hesitated to write about the preparations, but in the end I decided to make it part of my journey.

I'm scared, worried and I don't know how I put myself through this. I am so out of my comfort zone that there are no words. I have no safety net, no help and I will be alone. ( I know, I know: my family, friends are all at home.) Not to mention my confidence and self-belief is down two to the frog's bottom. How am I going to speak English? How will I make myself understood? What if I can't?

Okay enough, I'm going to stop myself here and finally start looking on the positive side, start trusting myself. I have done a lot in life and achieved a lot that I am proud of. I know I can do this, even if it's hard at the beginning.

Since I came up with the idea and implemented it, I've been preparing for it. I studied English, I practiced. I often have sentences in my head, how to say this and that in English. Honestly? I'm not brilliant, but that's why I'm going to England, to learn.

I didn't think it would work until now. I was a bit scared that it wouldn't work out. The last period has not been easy. Life has not been fair and understanding. Things happened that I didn't expect now, but in 20-30 years. Even now and every minute I think of the words of caution he would give me, how worried he would be for me and how afraid he would be. He would be here with me to help me pack and get ready. But it is no longer possible and there is no possibility. She's gone and now she's upstairs watching what's happening to me, how I'm doing. As long as I am alive he will always be here in my heart, so he will come with me to England.

In the last few weeks I started to make a list of what I would like to take with me. When I bought my plane ticket, I set myself a limit (25 kg checked baggage, two pieces of on-board baggage: one small bag and one small suitcase). This is what I need to allocate. I don't really need much stuff, as there will be laundry facilities outside and a shop if I need anything else. Anyway, you should have: camera and lenses, laptop (not for work), charger, converter, medicine, some clothes and myself.

Yes, it is important to mention one thing here. Perhaps I could have started with this. In terms of organisation, there were two options. One was to go out for a month and work in between. The other option was to not. In the end, I chose the second option. I'm lucky and grateful because my workpalace and boss support me (1 month is not a small amount). 1 month off, where I can study and take care of myself. I wonder what it will be like to return to the real world after a month? I won't tell you a big secret, in a month or so and a few days we'll find out. One thing is for sure: time will fly by. I will return with a lot of memories, experiences and hopefully more confidence.

I did buy a few things for the trip. I bought a new jacket and a new pair of waterproof shoes, and I needed a carry on bag for the flight because my suitcase was too small.

Packing was not difficult, as we just had to go through the list and put it in. Suitcases locked, just need to put the laptop in. I think I'm ready for the trip. I'm still mentally preparing, but I'm going on a big adventure on Sunday and I'm not deterred.

Dagoca